Elise, Marie, and Grace:
I hope you’re never embarrassed by WHAT you are. Who you play for – maybe; where you shop … perhaps; how your daddy behaves … probably, but never WHAT you are. What I am embarrassed me, once. OK, twice.
Fourth-grade incidents don’t count, though.
The kids on the bus made fun of a boy for being Mexican, only he was Greek. So they stopped picking on him because they didn’t know any good Greek jokes. I took the preemptive strike.
“I’m Australian,” I declared. They believed it for a hot minute.
Well, almost a quarter of the school year. Just don’t call me Mexican, and by Mexican, I mean Hispanic-American. We might not have come through Ellis Island like your family, but my family’s working on a fourth generation here in the states.
Ethnic embarrassment gets passed down generation to generation.
My mom tells of childhood embarrassment when all her lunches came wrapped in homemade tortillas – not slices of Wonder bread, like the white families did it.I know! I wish every meal I have today came wrapped in a homemade tortilla.
When I waited tables at a Mexican restaurant while I was in college, I could have wrapped all my tips from my lunch shift in a homemade tortilla. The little fajita tortilla, not even the big burrito variety.
How’s that for a sitcom: Hispanic college kid knows no Spanish, works in a Mexican restaurant. Working with men who looked like me but didn’t talk like me; serving people who talked like me but didn’t look like me.
People assumed I didn’t know English.
I got more than a few “ME WANT ANOTHER BEER POOR FUH-VOR!” requests. (Why do we think speaking louder – and without regard to grammar – will help the non-English speaker understand us better?)
One day while scooping up another meager pile of coins from a table (maybe they thought I’d be impressed with all the shiny pesos!), a woman at a nearby table decided to dispense what seemed like a wealth of good race-masking advice.
“Know what you need?” she asked and somehow, I didn’t think it was an offer for a high-paying job as a cabana boy. “Glasses. Take those tips, go to Claire’s in the mall, and buy some fake glasses. Trust me.”
I had just enough to make it. (Well, probably more than that, but doesn’t it add to the story?) I made the investment.
“Hey, Poncho!” faded away. Instead, I heard, “Are you in this country studying?” Rather than pointing to an empty chips basket and making chomping motions with their hands, patrons at my tables tossed about compliments on my ‘wonderful’ English.
The coins became dollars. Notes on credit card slips. Questions about where I was from.
I won’t lie. It was nice. For a while. But I could still see people hollering to our bus boy for refills. Raising their voice to order ON-cheh-LAH-duhs or “crunchy tacos” from the waiter in the next section.
The glasses didn’t with one big birthday party.
The man of the hour bellowed out for a sir-VEH-zuh when his Miller Lite ran low. He called me Paco or Pablo or Enrique and didn’t mind he was the only one laughing. He made quips about the music, picked on soccer, and probably took a shot at Erik Estrada.
After he ate, he asked what he’d just eaten – gesturing to what once was a proud chile relleno. Who eats something when they don’t know what it is?
“What was that, Chico?”
I stood behind his chair, made eye contact with his friends and in good, eager broken English told him, “Senor, that’s a Mexican delicacy. Cheese, rice and … salamander!” The table gave a pregnant pause before erupting in laughter. I just walked away.
I put my glasses in my pocket.
I don’t know what they tipped that night. The ladies were friendly, the older guys amiable. But as I walked back to the kitchen window, I saw ‘my’ brethren cooking and sweating and proud of their hard work, without thought to their broken English.
I thought of Latino baseball players who took pride in their homeland and the working men who walked down Central Avenue and nodded at me as they saw my brown face.
I’m like them. They’re like me. The change jingling in our pockets?
We earned every penny.
HA! I bet that man about crapped his pants thinking he had eaten salamandar… It’s a damn shame the world is filled with so many assholes, but at least we get to laugh at/about them. Great job!
My hope is, to this day, he still thinks he crunched an amphibian that night. And I also hope he’s married to the biatch in heels who messed with you in Wal-mart.
Without the ass hats, Ashley, think of all the blogs we’d miss out on.
I laughed really hard at the salamander part. And its so sad that you were treated that way.
Funny story – my boyfriend only passed English his junior year of high school because he was tutored by a waitress at a local Mexican restaurant. How is that for ironic?
I did too. He didn’t!
Your boyfriend’s passing grade is proof that those of us who work or have worked in a Mexican restaurant absolutely change the world. They should make a movie out of your boyfriend’s story. Jennifer Lopez can play the waitress, and Channing Tatum can play your boyfriend. Who’s going to play you?
Haha that would make a great movie. Hmm. If Channing Tatum gets to play him, I would probably opt to play myself. lol
Should I have said Jim Carrey would play him?
That would work better lol
Mr. Bean might be interested in the role.
Perhaps. So Irma Gobb can play me, right?
Right. Irma’s adorable.